I realized today that the days that I have people to talk to are better days. I also realized that being sick isolates me. Bit of a trick, that is. Talk is good but People are scared so they stay away. How do I encourage them? Must I repeat the no - pity rule over and over till we all have fun? Today the conversation was good books, vacations, relationships, trust and other ordinary things. The only mention of my illness was when I flinched trying to move in my chair and when attempting to carry the tea tray. Some things are too much. My job at the health food store, for instance. Tomorrow is my last day. I love that little store. The staff and customers are great but I need all the energy I have for my family and my home.
I'll miss them all.
Poor sleep is a big deal. Hope tonight is a good one.
I understand this….I feel the same way--talking to a friend makes my whole day feel better. Less isolated. When you are not well it makes it much worse. I think hearing that you want company will make a difference:) You're local and no one has to drive to see you so that is nice. I will come soon:) love, C.
ReplyDeletei hope i have lots of company ;)
DeleteI know that you will be graceful in allowing a guest to , once in a while to be the one to carry a tray or two. I do feel a grief in my heart as your friend as you walk by the things you need to let go of and not do any more. I want to celebrate with you in the new joys that you also encounter in this slower walk...and hope to soak in any wisdom that you are drawing from your experiences.
ReplyDeletethank for your friendship and kind words
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