There is so much from this day. Joy and sadness, friends and foe, silence and sound were all there. Conflicting emotions rode on my shoulders competing for attention no matter how I tried to control them. The joy of listening to superb live music with friends was bittersweet because while I enjoy watching I enjoy performing more. The awful telling of why I'm not playing just about ruined it all. It was both incredibly sad and wonderfully joyous.
I've always known that two-sided life. It's mysterious to me how this battle goes always on. Why can't I just be one way? Don't we all like days of only the good thoughts and feelings, along with circumstances to match?
The musician sings the story of life and the stories sung today of loneliness, heartbreak and home were keenly felt. The swirl of emotion drawn from these songs wraps me so tightly I want to scream and run. I'm not sure what that would look like but maybe a song would cover it. Maybe I need to write it.
You should write music still! Maybe someone else can team up with you to play it.
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