I fell asleep crying - that this burden would be removed, that I could be with my beloved, that provision be made - and I cried when I woke. My children were off to school and I missed seeing them. Never happened before. Makes me very sad. I also woke too late to get to help at the thrift store. I can't do much anyways but I want to see everyone there.
So many ends and no beginnings. Very disheartening.
I have no answers
One day at a time my friend...one day. I'm praying for you...its just too much sometimes to be sick on top of sick...to miss out...God, please mend Kim's heart today.
ReplyDeleteI remember someone telling me once this image of God collecting our tears in a vial, like it was perfume.....not that he takes joy in us being downcast but that he sees and cherishes our open hearts, even open enough to be downcast (not proud).
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Kim and I understand. You are always surrounded in Grace and Love. Let it always draw you closer to Him.
ReplyDeleteWhen will you be with John? Why aren't you there right now? Isn't that more important than anything else in your family right now? I don't understand why. I know if I were going through something so hard and heavy, there is no WAY I would go through it away from Lance's side! Is there no way you can get there? Is it because the girls are in school? Is there nobody that could let them stay while they finish this year so you can go be cared for and enjoy the presence of your husband? Could they not just be pulled out and finish the year back in BC? Do they not understand how much you need to be with your husband?
ReplyDeleteI don't mean to be ignorant. I love you, Kim! I think it's crazy that you are apart from your husband in this difficult time, when you need him so much, and when he needs you. This is the time you have with him!
I am praying for you, and I am especially praying that there will be a way to get you home. Your home is with your husband, and until they are old enough to afford differently, that is your children's home too, isn't it? I know I don't understand your situation. I'm scared that I'm out of line. But I'm also scared that if I don't say something, I'll regret not saying it later. My questions and tone all come from a place of love, my friend. I hope you get home much sooner than later.
I echo this. Thanks for putting it down Paula
DeleteOh Paula all reasonable questions. Thank you for asking. I would leave now except for a couple of very important events in May. The girls will finish the year here. Then we're done.
ReplyDeleteOK. Well. Man. I think I'd be more selfish than you are being! Ha ha!! Bring Spring, then, and here's to holding on until then!
DeleteAfter I see Emma dance I can go♡
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